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24.10.05 the unexpected surge of brilliance.jpg) i don't know about my peers, and i'm not sure of what to make of this. but what's delightfully been knocking on my mind are short & sweet moments in a day (usually an hour prior to sleep), where your mind goes crazy with ideas that seem so beautiful and promising, where there're several specific paths to your future for your taking so long as you commit to it. it's somehow like the final stage in The Price Is Right, you know the stuff behind the door A's gonna be good, but you're not going to be content knowing that you'll never find out what could have been if you chose door B. it's thoughts like these that render dreams somewhat useless, as you take on life in a more systematic method. nowadays i just dismiss dreams as thoughts irrelevant to real life. that way, one wouldn't feel cheated after waking from a really great dream, and nightmares are simply another episode to one's usual fears and dislikes. not much else to dreams, really... it's all because of this 'brilliance surge' that i know what my goals are and that a juicy and achievable plan will soon emerge and take action. the time between the present and future successes that matter would seem to shorten tenfold. i'm always walking through carparks when my thoughts finally unravel. perhaps it's the same effect when an aspiring pilot faces a sky filled with amazing clouds, or when a pastor-to-be who finds himself standing in a wide-open grassland. it's all about keeping the imagination fully occupied to keep the drive up. perhaps delusion is setting in, or tis the result of a dash too much alia in my teh. but for once i recognise what i want to be and where i don't want to end up at in twenty years. some insist that money's only an issue of convenience, but they end up being air stewards. not really for the money or the experience but more a bit of both, a temporary berth to make their mind up on what to do, while the convenience issue becomes a thing of the past; some shit that made them feel like the odds were so stacked against them. life can get really complicated after awhile, but i'm glad there're people out there who share similar predicaments and know the slightest idea what i'm on about. for that i'm grateful; to know that i'm on to something and the only way from here is up... 0 Comments: |
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